I’ve been learning a lot about myself lately. I still struggle with feelings of rejection, and honestly, most of it is my imagination going a little bit on the haywire side. I know, for certain, some areas of rejection are simply because I never asked and since I didn’t ask, no one asked me, and therefore… rejected. Silly, right?
I also realized that social media has a great way of distorting reality so I’ll perceive rejection that’s not there, and as such, I was starting to have a very unhealthy relationship with social media. I found myself envious and angry that I wasn’t participating in certain events, and it really wasn’t helping with this feeling I was being rejected or that my family was being rejected. These are things I’ve been struggling with a lot and instead of leaning in, I tried running away.
But here’s the thing, when I finally leaned in, I could hear God whisper His truths to me. It’s like in 1 Kings. Elijah has this enormous victory over Baal, and then he thinks he’s the last one, and maybe he thinks that God has rejected him like Israel seemed to thanks to Ahab and Jezebel. But God hadn’t. As Elijah fled and hid in a cave, several things happened. A strong wind, an earthquake, and a fire all come but God isn’t in those things. Those things may be strong, and loud, like this voice that I kept hearing telling me that I was worthless and rejected, but God’s not in that. No. He’s in the gentle whispers that you have to lean in to hear. My favorite part, though? When God tells Elijah there are a lot more than just him left.
The enemy loves to use isolation against us. He loves to say, “you’re unworthy. you’ll never be like that person. no one loves you. you’re alone.” (by the way, these are all lies i’ve heard and started to believe. The enemy is wily and he knows what buttons to push.)
But where the enemy pushes isolation, God says differently. He says, “I am here. I desire you. I made you unique. I love you. You are NOT alone. I delight in you.”
If you find yourself hearing the lies and not much else, if you find yourself thinking that no one can possibly know what you’re feeling, recognize the enemy’s role, tell him to shut it, and get some friends around you, to remind you the truths God whispers, and pray that spirit away. You are a child of God, a coheir with Christ, and the enemy has NO CONTROL OVER YOU! You aren’t alone. And if you can’t think of a friend who is in your corner, let me know, because I am, and I will remind you the truths of who God has made you to be.
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