life is a battlefield

I’ve learned something about myself in these last 6 or so months. I do not handle rejection well at all. I take it beyond personally and I start seeing my worth in that rejection. If perceived rejection happened enough from the same person or group of people, I started thinking that it was directly related to my worth. In all honesty, there have been certain people that I do want approval from all the time. I will go out of my way, it seems like, to seek their approval, but then I realized that is a toxic place to be. It’s not fair to them to be my “emotional drug” and it’s not really fair to me.

When I realized this, I called it out in my life. I started speaking value into my being from the very Word of God. He calls me beloved. He says I’m His and nothing can separate me from Him or His love. He delights in me.

I also let a very select few in on this struggle. When the rejection started to seep up in my life again, I’d send them a text, and I’d start listening to music that spoke these truths back into my life. I’ve learned praise is a weapon, and you had better believe I’ve been utilizing it a lot. When I cannot remember the truths about who God says I am, I focus on who He says I am, and then the world feels right again.

How have you noticed this in your life? I’d love to hear from you!

-karen